The "Oh Wow that shouldn't happen" list.

This is going to be an on going list of things that have happened i want to make note of, despite also wishing i could forget or ignore. **  many items missing from list as well... my memory sucks *. This list may come in handy one day, or might just be a depressing timeline of events and situations. If you are about to view it understand to me many of these things written behind the cut are embarrassing to me, or outright humiliating, please don't tease or poke fun.

How many blades does that raiser have

Spelling will be fixed later when on computer, or move it to the shit that shouldn't happen list.

Got new raisers this week from dollar raiser club ... Well directly from their supplier. The point is in the Handel package is also two different blade attachments. I spent a good 5-10 minutes looking at them tryin to see the difference between them to understand why they gave me ones that were different colours but had the same blade count. Eventually i read over the packaging where it stated one was 3 blade and the other 4 blades. I went back to looking at the attachments confused as I had clearly counted they each had 3blades.

Finally looking at them knowing one should have 4blades I clued in my double vision issues are what were messing me up bigtime. 

I have become so used to the double vision issues that when it comes to holding things close to my face if it has something to read in it I now instinctivly close one eye to read it, This 'solution' applies to typing out blog posts on my cellphone. Though it works I know doing so will weaken my other eye while overly strengthening the other no doubt making it worse in the long run. 

I miss being able to truly pleasure read.

This is frustrating.

thoughts on paperwork

I am not yet even 29, i shouldn't have to worry about what paperwork i have or haven't done in case my next fall leaves me unable to communicate my wishes. My parents want me to get a power of attorney put in place as an in case measure. The other side of the coin is no doubt that they are worried that suddenly my cognitive function might drop off and documents would be needed in that case too.

Either way, i shouldn't need to think about power of attorney before my 29th birthday, and yet its on my mind. (also need paperwork written up so that appointments/doctor information can be picked up or dealt with by others besides me as often yes it is overwhelming and hard to understand the information, but the reality is the paperwork my parents want done would not likely help in such regard at least to how i understand things but perhaps i will remember to read up about it and other ways to grand access to medical information later on,)

How to do i explain that first Scott is in line to decide things, if he is unable/unavailable or chooses not to decide then my parents would be the ones to get to decide large medical choices if and when needed.

Didn't read that tight.... Oh right

Simply noting it down while I have it on my mind, I am noticing once again that I am having trouble with words in the way that I will read them as one thing when in fact they say something entirely different. 

By this I mean I would read "forest" when it said "frost" or read "cash" when it said "crash" an there were orhes today I can't recall. I've had this issues before an scott spotted it when read something allowed, today I spotted while playing one off my brain excersize games I try to use daily and today's made it very clear this is a big issues as I did it many times (an only clued in as the "words that were adsosiated" made no sense with what I read.... Then I clued into my issue as what I read was wrong.)

Also as I write this I am having issues as think a full sentience out nib my head yet as I type I entirely miss words. 

For someone who loves reading this is upsetting, my brain/eyes have already took away my ability to effectively read well and fast enough to enjoy reading novels but this issue of entirely miss reading words makes even taking in a single sentience without becoming confused tricky.