Day 3. But I had symptoms since:

Day 3
But I had symptoms since: 



Part way through my first menstruation cycle is when the pain really started to hit me. I was 14 in fact my birthday had just passed and I was feeling weird but didn’t think about it, I went to sit on the toilet and saw blood oozing into the bowl from between my legs. I burst into tears, as far as I was concerned that blood meant the beginning of the end when it came to being pain free, to do what I want when I wanted, the end of being able to wear what I wanted, the end of having good attendance at school or anything. Sure I didn’t know these things to be true in my case…. Well I didn’t know YET. But my mom had been very honest about how her period affected her life (she was diagnosed with endometriosis also) so I had reason to be scared. Sure there was no guarantee that it would mean I would have the same issues as her, but her mother had terrible periods that would leave her crippled in pain and unable to move, and so did her mother (so my mom, grandma, and great-grandma) all sounded like they suffered from endometriosis.

After I stopped crying and was able to tell my mom why I was crying in the bathroom I was able to find the amusing side of it all. We had recently moved to a very “white” town, that was really rather wealthy, or everyone I went to school with was, so while I was crying about the arrival of my menses, I knew other girls in my class were celebrating the arrival of threes, bragging about it and so on. For me it was my dirty secret, as none of the girls understood, I simply had to be making it up, as THEY didn’t lose control of their legs while on their period, or throw up…… As boys had nothing to compare it to I most often found them the most understanding so tried to stick with more guy then girlfriends.

Photograph credit: "Cubicle 5" by AbsentAsI on deviantart.com

Day one of Endometriosis Awareness Month

Day 1. For me, living with Endometriosis is: daily pain and excess daytime sleepiness, then there are my "bad" days where i simply can't seem to function and often have a very hard time even standing up or walking due to the pain, the bad days i always try to reduce my pain with medication, heat, herbs and such but often it feels like nothing helps. All of this leaves me with a life of much isolation.

#endendo
#endometriosis
#endoawareness
#endosisters
#endoproblems#awishnoted

Writen December 16 2010

If you are someone who knows me and talks to other family of mine please read this and forget it, or keep it to yourself.

The things I am about to say in here few people know about and those people DO NOT include my parents or family in general.

I wrote this then decided to hold off posting this till I knew how my body seemed to be handling the new treatment.

(Written December 16 2010)

One week ago today I went to the doctors, a GYN and started on one "medication" to try to help out with my endometriosis. It’s a last resort treatment but it is better than the other alternative last resort things that are also not guaranteed to pan out (like a hysterectomy I have no intention of trying anytime soon).
This treatment is also a birth control used by many women it is known as the Mirena IUD.

It’s been one week ago today that I had it inserted and insertion was painful, but insertion doesn’t take that long, though I had extra pain since even the speculum hurts but I got through it holding S's hand and looking up at the ceiling reading and rereading the comics (this doctor has doctor related comics on the ceiling so when your being examined you have a distraction, its awesome).

The medication you insert the night before you have the IUD inserted started me cramping within an hour but I was able to cope with it. The actual insertion did hurt allot and I was vocal about it, though I was medicated so wonder how much worse it could have been if I had only taken Tylenol like he had suggested (I was on dilaudid, and a bunch of herbal sedatives along with gravel since I know pain makes me throw up at times). I expected bleeding after insertion but that never really happened yes, I had one really small clot at that was it. However the cramping after insertion is still happening I am hoping it will settle down.