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I live in chronic pain. The reason for my pain, is Endometriosis. I was diagnosed through surgery when I was 17. I have decided to have this blog, so that those in my life can get a peek into my day to day issues that affect my life in every way.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

So much to do, and cant move.

Well, first I woke up this morning in pain, quite a bit but didn’t want bring down Scott as he was headed off to work. Or make him worry since I have allot I need to do today.

Set an alarm and went back to sleep for a bit, I was feeling exhausted with no reason at all to be!

I woke up off and on but still too much pain to move much, and so warm in the house even with the fan I re-set the alarm. Still I kept waking up in a panic off and on and oh my word the "nightmares" FUCK, sickness.

Finally I realise I can no longer stay in bed any longer, even with the pain and the exhaustion. I have too much to do today! So I took one of my prescribed pills (not the ones I am avoiding) that is for the fact I was diagnosed years ago with something that explains my exhaustion apparently, for almost the last year, except while in school I haven’t taken these meds since they make me allot more alert, and when you’re in pain... more alert equals more pain. With school however I needed to take the meds since they made focusing and doing homework allot more possible and not needing over 12hours sleep a night.

So I hurt, but figured if the meds to make me alert made that worse, I might end up taking pain meds, and would at least get things done. Took the pills and laid down to wait for them to kick in.

....

Now i am not moving or even unclenching jaw since i am gagging.
Pleasant I know, but I am afraid to move to even get my puke bucket.
The pain is still full force, and now I feel like CRAP on top of it all.

I took these meds that make me alert, a few days ago and did not have problems so I don’t know if it is the medication, or the pain.



Things to do today:
Call layer
Make all windows easy to get to (house buyer coming in to measure them with a window guy)
Do dishes (got most done)
Tidy house, ALLOT
Shower
Finish packing closet (other than hanging clothing)

Should:
Tidy outside/garden before buyers gets here at 5:30
Talk to buyers when they get here about the wall patches
Get back in touch with the person who said they are buying bed
Get back in touch with lady coming for freecycle shit