Start of day 3 on Butrans

Today (day 2) i was feeling pain so stayed in bed since normaly i would take some pain pills and still not move much but with no pills as a choice i just didnt move at all really.

yesterday (at the start of day 2) i was finding scott talking to me really rather frustrating to the point i was about to break down into tears, i simply could not handle comunicating or at least not out loud in speach. If he was in the room it was slightly better but if he was out of sight i couldnt do it and was getting really really cranky about it i simply couldn't pricess the information i guess. I was also experiencing leg and arm cramps due to there being no dilauded in my body, or way way less then there has been since last october (when i started changing from demerol to dilauded) so i was extra annoyed due to simply how uncomfertable i was.
I had been feeling like i was in a fog all day before this inability to comunicate but the comunication might have been an issue already i just dont know since i was home alone for 13hours and i dont seem to be finding the issue as bad with comunication via writing or typing, still haveing some issues with the ability to think out what i want to say or get accross but not nearly as bad.

Today as i said i was in pain so didnt move much, and didn't feel to foggy over all just sleepy and mellow. Had a bad headache for a while, but cant say if thats a result of the butrans, or the fact it was raining here since i often get weather related pressure headaches. Now that S is home again it is quickly comming clear just how much communication out loud is still being an issue for me but today i could at least explain it to him to let him know it wasn't him that was driving me loony it was i couldnt handle information comming to me in that form let alone responding in a timely fashion. He even thought to ask about if it was in all forms and i clued in when i was texting him earlyer in the day it wasnt nearly the same level of issuse or when talking to friends over msn.

Also i feel really in a fog now but it could be that its kicking in more or that its the same as it was earlyer i am simply more tired at the moment who knows.
Hope it mellows out though seeing as i am about to pay some one a deposit for what i beleive is my largest purchase yet, and she is friendly and i was chatty to her when i saw her on sunday and looked at what i have now desided to buy (will explain when everything is finished an is all good) so she will likely expect me to be able to talk again, and yet today i dont really think i can handle it so i have been telling S all the things we have to ask or tell her when we see her next cause i simply am unsure if i can or will do it on my own.

All this said the patch has stayed on no issue, haven't scratched off and its right in reach of my hand when i am sleeping or resting. (on the middle front of my right thigh) and today it went through a shower with no issue, though i did avoid getting soap on it as much as possible.